Day 5

I'm done with irrelevant quotes.

--Dan K.

Simple as that. I think it's a bit pretentious to apply such insightful quotes to something that doesn't really matter all that much. Unless I come across something that really speaks to me, I think I may be done writing quotes at the top of each post. Perhaps I will start posting humorous images and videos instead. It's interesting how blogs evolve.

Anyway, things are still going very well. I was full of energy on Day 5, but that could be attributed to drinking a pot of coffee. Who knows? I had a good run, even though it was very tiring. After the run I was very relaxed. I was tired, so I took a nap before dinner. I woke up a bit grumpy, but tried to stay positive. It worked. I think I'm genetically wired to be a bit too easily agitated, anyway. I can easily think of a couple family members who are, too. I really don't think it has anything to do with me quitting my habit. 

Not a ton of cravings to speak of. They seem to be dissipating a bit every day. That's fine with me. What I am coming to realize is that I'm really not "addicted" in the traditional sense. When I have it, I like to smoke it. Alone, with friends, in a box, with a fox . . . it doesn't matter. When I don't have it, it rarely crosses my mind. Sure, if I wasn't making a big deal about quitting, perhaps I would attempt to obtain it, but does that necessarily mean I'm addicted? I'm sleeping well, I'm eating well, I'm not being a rabid asshole. I'm not getting sweats or chills. I'm not seeing babies walking around on the ceiling. I haven't shit the bed yet. I'm not obsessing. It's not really a big deal.

This is a relief. At the start of this experiment, I was unsure about my level of dependency. I thought it would be much harder to give something up. However, I have not been in any environment that would test my resolve, but when I visualize it, I see myself sticking to my guns. It seems easy, but time will tell.

Physically, I feel pretty good. Not extremely different, but good. That's about it. I think it's still worthwhile to keep posting. It keeps me motivated. I just think that other topics may be more worthy, and content regarding my "addiction" or "dependency" or "juvenile habit" will likely fade from the foreground. Whatever I decide, it will be my prerogative. 

Sincerely,

Dan K.